Friday, December 3, 2004

October 04

Sunday, October 31, 2004 (12w3d)

Happy Halloween

I didn’t go to church this morning b/c I threw up my breakfast right before we were supposed to leave. But my dad went w/ Charlie since mom is in Colorado, so it worked out nicely. The day ended great, Nadine Charlie & I had a wonderful time dressing up as a witch, a baby & a nerd while we carved pumpkins & made carmel apples & apple cider. It was Nadine’s first time carving a pumpkin so it make it extra special. The Pedregons, Yosts, & Murray’s showed up for a bit too which made it really fun. Annie & Ryan were dressed up as superheros & were supercute…next year we’ll be dressing up our little one! Cherie gave me a really pretty red maternity top…I hope I can start wearing it soon!!

 

Saturday, October 30, 2004 (12w2d)

Throwing up @ a shower…

I went to Kacie Geibel’s baby shower last night. It was also a costume party & a sleepover. It was great to see her again, as well as Amanda, Tonee, and Jenny, it had been a while since we all had connected…Unfortunetly, I ended up puking in the early morning. Ick! I didn’t make it all the way to the bathroom either. Not pretty - and embarassing in someone elses home! Although, it was a time God intended me to be there b/c I found someone who has been dx w/ PCOS & was able to share hope with them! Praise God - I’ve been able to share what I’ve learned with so many women who are struggeling w/ PCOS & infertility & miscarriage, it’s amazing to see how he uses the pain in my life to help others.

Friday, October 29, 2004 (12w1d)

Telling the rest of the office…

Today we celebrated Kumi’s departure to Maternity leave…there were 3 of my co-workers in the lunch room so I asked Mary if she could get the rest of the office to come in there. She didn’t know why, but she agreed. So once they were all in I announced “just wanted to let you all know that I am 3 months pregnant!” they erupted in cheers & clapping. It was a fun moment. The few that had been here the day I puked said “we knew it!” and a couple of them didn’t hesitate to say the actually had noticed I had gotten a tummy!! It’s nice to have it out. One said that at first she thought I was going to say I was leaving & freaked out. It was also another scary moment - telling them - after being out for 3 weeks during my last pregnancy & miscarriage it was akward comming back, but now that I’m further along I felt secure enough to share.

Thursday, October 28, 2004 (12w)

time to tell… 

I told my bosses today, they were suprised & happy for meI know it will concern them all knowing I will be out on maternity leave. I’m glad I’m an asset to the office & will be missed.

Now that we’ve heard the heartbeat & are 12 weeks we’re ready for word to be spread…we won’t be making a big announcement but as we see people we’ll share the news, it’s not a secret anymore. It’s a little scary, but also a relief to be here. I wondered many times if this day would ever come.

It was fun to tell Jeana Hurst because just the day before we heard the heartbeat she emailed me about a dream she had where we had a little baby named Lizzie - I couldn’t believe it - since Elizabeth Grace will be the name if it’s a girl. So needless to say she was amazed to hear we were pregnant!

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Disneyland!

We went to Disneyland today with Nadine (she’s staying w/ us for a couple weeks) We ended up getting a wheelchair for me b/c I was having some pain when I was walking. It was super cool b/c we got to go strait to the front of the line for all the rides! I of course didn’t get to ride everything, but had a blast anyway. We all rated it as one of our best times there! Complete with Ice Cream Cones & Churros. (I had the pain checked out by the doc & all is fine - it’s just ligaments stretching -  I’m just so in tune w/ every little thing down there that I feel anything at all)

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

The most beautiful sound in the world…

WE HEARD THE HEARTBEAT!!! The apt was at 2 so I spent the morning shopping, trying to make time go by fast. I had been prepared for them to maybe not even check for a hb yet, as well as for it to take a long time, digging around for it, and maybe even then not hear it. We get into the room & while the nurse is taking my BP I decide to ask her if we’ll be able to hear it yet, she checks my u/s to verify my EDD & says yes…so she comes in & checks herself (I assumed the doc would do it) and she puts the gel on, then the doppler & doesn’t have to move it a bit, she immediately says, “there it is!” and “it’s a fast one” she counted it out 157bpm & we just listened, while breathing a huge sigh of relief!! It was the most beautiful sound in the world. The doc was late comming in & we didn’t see him for another 1/2 hour or so…but we didn’t care! I was so glad we weren’t in suspense that whole time! We called our parents on our cell’s from the office. When the doctor did arrive he told us that we have only a 1% chance of miscarriage!! WOW! We also agreed for me to stay on my medication for now, fortunetly it is working! They gave me a bag w/ tons of magazines, prenatal samples, and formula samples, etc. (the formula part was a little anoying to me -  I’m not sure I appreciate the marketing of it when BF is a better way to go but that’s my opinion). I also did all the official bloodwork. My poor arms are looking like pin cushions!  I finaly felt like I’d ‘arrived’ I hope to have my 2nd level u/s & find out the sex @ 19 weeks…b/c 20 weeks is Christmas! That’s only 8 weeks away!

Monday, October 18, 2004

Morning Sickness!

I threw up at my desk this morning! It wasn’t the first time I’ve thrown up, but the first time at work! I had time to get on my knees & get it into the trash can, butmy co-workers definetly heard it. I was concerned that my secret might be out, but forutnetly they assumed it was something I ate. phew! lucky one! I’m really grateful though b/c overall I have felt good. I have some days when I feel icky, but overall I feel pretty good. Tired, but good. The few times I’ve thrown up have been in the middle of a meal. I don’t mind being sick though - it’s a good reassurance. Mom had such bad morning sickness all the way thru that I’ve worried I would be the same - but if this is all - no problem!

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September 04

Wednesday, September 22, 2004 (6w6d)

1st Ultrasound

Baby is not only in there, but his/her heart beat was 145bpm & s/he is measuring on time! We are so so relieved. We held our breath as the u/s began and it was a beautiful moment when we realized things were good so far! The technition was super nice & they even have a television screen elevated so I can watch! I was suprised that they were able to see so much from an abdominal u/s - even w/out a full bladder. Every day is a good one when I’m not spotting, but it’s also a scary one…just hoping and praying all is well.

With such good news, we decided to tell a few more people so we called our siblings, my grandparents & extended family and a few close friends. After losing 2 pregnancies it’s always scary to tell people, but these are people we need to know - no matter what happens…and of course it means more people praying! Everyone was happy for us of course, and being able to tell them the good news about the ultrasound helped because it gives them hope.

Saturday, September 24, 2004 (7w2d)

what’s in a name…

We’ve known for a while that if we have a girl her name will be Elizabeth Grace. Elizabeth means Consecrated to God. We chose it because we love it, but oddly it’s also the names are from 2 characters in my favorite romance movie - Return to Me. I also love the verse in Luke 2 where the angel tells Mary of Elizabeth’s pregnancy & announces that “She who was barren is now in her sixth month, Nothing is impossible with God!” What we haven’t quite agreed on is calling her Liz, Beth, or Elizabeth.

So because we have a girl name chosen we’ve kinda leaned toward wanting a girl because we already identify w/ the name, but I wanted to have a boy name too so that we could want both equally…well it worked!

We decided today on Eliott George. Eliott b/c we like it, it means the Lord is My God. And George because it happens to be both of our Dad’s middle name! How perfect!

It wasn’t intentional, but what I love is that both names have identical initials (E.G. - so we can already call them that!) & the first names even begin w/ the same first 3 letters. So now that we have both names chosen I can’t decide what I want more! I can’t imagine being more thrilled with either one!

Wednesday, September 08, 2004 (4w6d)

Results are in…

and… bloodwork is good, 3rd Beta was 1747! Doctor Kassar congratulated us & commented that it didn’t take long! We told our parents…they recieved the news well, but were cautious as expected. It’s sad that such an announcement can’t be recieved with unreserved joy, because for us, pregnancy is both a chance for hope, and a possibility of devestation. We let them know that for now it’s a secret - from everyone. It’s hard enough knowing ourselves, making it thru each day without worrying to much. Telling people right now is just more than we can handle. I had a Bible Study reccomended to me by Tonee, it’s by Linda Dillow, called Calm My Axious Heart. Boy is it so good. I have read the first chapter several times through and am memorizing the verse. Steph and I are going to do it together. I think it will have a wonderful impact on my perspective throughout this pregnancy.

 

Tuesday, September 07, 2004 (4w6d)

It doubled!

2nd Beta was 313!! More than doubled!! 3rd Beta today … doc apt. tomorrow.

 

Friday, September 03, 2004 (4w1d)

double beta double

1st beta was 120 took 2nd one today.

 

Wednesday, September 01, 2004 (3w6d)

A wonderful but scary day

I haven’t been charting my cylces & so we haven’t technically been trying, it’s just too much stress after what we’ve been through. I’m on the glucophage now and I won’t be going off it. For a few days now, I’ve just kinda ‘felt’ like I was pregnant so I decided to take an OPK to see what would happen - well SUPER dark line - so I knew I was either ovulating or already pg, so when Charlie got home @ lunch I asked permission to take an HPT. I took a cheapie - there was a line…I took a digital: PREGNANT! We’re happy, but scared of course…not going to tell anyone yet. I drove to the dr’s office & demanded to be seen. The nurse ordered HCG & P4 as well as prescribed crinone. I hope it doubles!! Praying!

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