Monday, February 7, 2005

A Super Weekend!

I was SO relieved to go home Friday to a recovered Puppy! I’m not sure what was wrong, but I’m happy to report that Brandi is all better. Made me very glad that we decided to give it a couple days before taking her to the vet.

I did some shoping for the nursery on Saturday with Katie. It was so much fun! We found a great deal on wooden letters ~ we’re doing his name for the wall, and the ‘O’ will have a basketball in the center. We painted them on Sunday - I was so excited to begin DOING stuff for his room! We also picked the colors to paint the room. We decided on a yellow that matches the bedding. I wanted to use blue for accents, but not for wall color b/c the room may be shared by a sister one day ;-)

I still feel pretty good, but even on the weekends I can’t stay up past 10:00 - Saturday evening I went to bed around 9:45. Sunday morning we began a class at the church that is basically an introduction to the church, explains their doctrine, mission, structure, etc. We’ll get to meet the leadership & basically after the class we’ll be able to decide if this is where we want to belong. So far so good!

We watched the SuperBowl at my in-law’s, my parents came too, as well as some friends. I had more fun socializing of course, and was a bit dissapointed when the Patriots won, but I’m not a big football fan anyway, so it wasn’t as sad as the Lakers 1 point loss to Houston. :-(

My little niece or nefew is due anyday now, I can’t wait to get the news that he or she is on their way!

 

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Friday, February 4, 2005

My Brandi Is Hurting

I don’t know what’s wrong with her but something is. She seems okay, but then she won’t jump on anything like she used to, and for the last couple nights she mainly wants to lay alone in her bed. Doesn’t help that Tucker is constantly pestering her to play. I can’t seem to spot a specific limp or location of the pain, but she looks at me w/ her big brown eyes & I know she’s hurting. It kills me inside…but we she also isn’t crying, she’s eating & going to the bathroom like normal, so we’re reluctant to fork out tons of $$ to the vet if it’s just a sore muscle that will go away with rest…but I can’t believe how much it hurts me to watch her hurt. It made me wonder how many times stronger this feeling will be when Elliot is in pain.
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Thursday, February 3, 2005

I’m still amazed…(26 weeks)

I’m still amazed that I am 26 weeks pregnant - that Elliot has (thanks to God) stuck around…and the reality of holding my little boy in my arms is getting more possible every day. WOW! My friend Steph shared with me a neat saying the other day, and I can’t remember how it went exactly, but it talked about how when God allows us to go thru trials and waiting periods for something, it makes us all the more grateful when we finally recieve the gift. Truly, the significance of holding a living child in my arms is so much greater, now that I’ve known the loss of others, and had to wait longer than I expected to have a baby.

God is so good, and it is also amazing to look back and see how He has transformed trials in my life into blessings. I got to spend time with two of those blessings on Tuesday night. I have two special friends that I wouldn’t even know, had I not dealt with PCOS and had miscarriages. They are very special women and are treasured gifts from God. It is a true reminder that when future trials come, I can more easily accept them, knowing that out of them God will bring wonderful blessings.

The weeks seem to be flying by…and I have so much to do before he arrives! We want to start working on the nursery but we have water damage from the rain & the contractor is having a hard time getting our upstairs neighbor to arrange a time for them to get into her condo to fix the problem. It’s quite frusterating & I’m not sure what we’re going to have to do to get it fixed. But once it is we’ll begin! I took some ‘before’ shots yesterday so we’ll be able to compare the transformation - I can pretend I’m on one of the home-decorating shows on TV. Except, I won’t be painting of course - Charlie will have to take care of that! :-)  Neither one of us wanted to do a big ‘theme’ but we will have some basketball stuff in there for accessories. For example, we’re going to have his name on the wall in wooden letters, and the ‘O’ will be a basketball. The practical side of us wants most things, especially expensive things, to easily convert to unisex if we were to have a girl later on & still live here.

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Is this your first?

I get asked that innocent question a lot. Generally my answer is “yes.” I mean, what else am I supposed to say? I know this person wants to know if this is the first time I’ve experienced a baby move inside of me, if this will be the first child I hold in my arms, the ‘oldest’ of future children to come. So I answer yes. Yet, there is a part of me that wants to answer “No! this is my THIRD child, there are two others, but while I never got to hold them, they are in heaven.” But I suppose that would be like explaining what a horrible awful bad day you’re having when someone casually asks “Hi, how are you?” when of course the expected response is “fine.” While I wish there was an easier way to answer truthfully, I don’t mind the question, and it doesn’t offend me in the least. Someone is kindly taking interest in my life, and asking a truly common, and generally easily answered question. And when I answer yes, they  they share more things, telling me what it might be like when Elliot arrives, what it was like for them, etc. If I were to simply answer no, they would think I’d already experienced childbirth, and taking care of an infant, and I would miss out on what they would share to a ‘first time’ mother. Occasionally when it feels appropriate I do share a little more, and it feels nice to validate the lives that were inside of me for such a short time, the two little ones I will meet one day.
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