False Labor
Yesterday I was having semi-regular contractions for several hours - we went to the mall to walk & encourage them. Unfortunetly they went away by mid afternoon. It was definetly dissapointing. I hope to have an unmedicated childbirth, and I know the best chance of that will be if I can go into labor on my own - induction will definetly lower the chances of that happening, so I’m really praying I go into labor before my doc apt on Wednesday. I am also trying to accept that things may not go at all how I hope - and to be okay with that b/c I don’t want to be affected by it afterwards in the form of post partum blues.
Inspite of no labor I had a great weekend with Charlie. We did TONS of walking - malls, parks, old town streets, we went swimming and had a lot of fun chatting & joking. Charlie made up songs to sing to Elliot (no suprise to anyone who knows my husband) and also gave Elliot a little pep talk to encourage him out - so far he’s being stubborn and ignoring it! k
Last night I decided I needed to get out and focus on something else so we called our parents & all went to Spaggetti Factory. It was good for me to do my hair & makeup - it made me feel better. We had a nice time w/ the granparents to be.
I didn’t expect the pressure that I feel of going past my due date - no one intentionally has made me feel badly, but I feel like I’m letting people down - like I’m not performing the way I’m supposed to. I don’t mind that people call to check on me, but it sucks having dissapointing news every time. I am also reluctant to call anyone b/c the moment they know it’s me they are hoping I’m calling to say he’s on the way. Charlie has been so terrific, but I really felt like I let him down, he walked so many miles with me & I didn’t come thru - I know he doesn’t feel that way at all, but that’s how I felt. I kept appologizing to him. Silly, I know.
I did get a lovely massage in one of those cool chairs at Sharper Image at the mall yesterday - and we bought a nice fan that is supposed to be able to control the temperature of the room - our AC doesn’t work well & costs a lot to run, so hopefully this will keep us 3 cool all summer.
Well I certainly hope my next updae on here is a link to a new journal becaue I won’t be pregnant anymore!
he\s just cooking longer, cos he n God know something we don\t. Maybe he\s waiting for his eyebrows to grow in a bit more.
It\s understandable to feel the way you are. I always felt inadequate through-out my whole pregnancy (both). But really, \"God is in Control\"… ultrasounds can\t truly be on the perfect right anyhow; usually it\s an estimate.
I think Elliot is actually making it easier on you to go natural… he\s in place and you\ve dilated a good deal. I would say to stay close to the hospital; you are prolly dilated more now. ohh the beauty is worth the wait! no matter what day he comes, we will be there as soon as you want us to be.